Let’s get this over with (pun intended) - I'm going to die . . . . eventually, we all are. There is a fine line between acquiescence and acceptance. According to our good friends at Merriam-Webster (the dictionary people): Acquiescence is a passive and often silent submission to a situation, whereas acceptance is a more active and conscious choice to embrace something, whether it be a reality, a proposal, or a way of life. Acquiescence implies a lack of protest or objection, while acceptance can involve a deeper understanding and voluntary agreement.
I’ve been forced, or maybe it’s that I have been given the chance, or perhaps it’s that I have had the opportunity, or maybe it can even be described as my having had the privilege (there are many ways to look at this) to at least think about my mortality. Looking at it with objective clarity - without worry of its imminence, but being cognizant of its inevitability. I don’t believe that talking about it will hasten my demise at all, in the same way that I think it is illogical to imagine that ignoring it will prevent it.
Perhaps my outlook is precipitated by my Multiple Myeloma, or it may not be - I’ve never imagined or been advised about my disease in that way. But when I do shuffle off this mortal coil, it won’t be because I neglected going to the doctor(s) or from not taking care of myself.
Mine is not a morbid fixation, rather it’s just an understanding of the frailty of life, and perhaps a greater appreciation for the time that I have (which statistically could be just as long as almost anyone else - barring an unexpected or unfortunate trauma). My father died when he was 40 and my mother lived until nearly 90, so genetics isn’t a factor here.
I accept the fact that at the end of the day, my time will come and I will be prepared and perspicacious, because I’ve taken the time to think about it without being afraid of it. And after all, I’m a triple Libra, so I have a planetary propensity for the need for peace, balance, and fairness as a central part of my being - in life and after. (thanks, Jess)
